friends for life?

i can't help but feel i'm being left out, or forgotten, like everyone is living their life and leaving me in the dust. i mean i know that people live thier lives, so change is inevitable, but don't forget me! i guess it just hurts. i had some good friends that i thought would be my friends for life but i guess we drifted apart? it's just really hard when you talk to someone and they are really superficial about being my friend, it just isn't the same... hey how are you? good, how are you? is not enough to hold a friendship together, in my opinion. also, getting engaged and not telling me/using facebook to announce that? really? and ohp not inviting me to the wedding. i guess we weren't friends like i thought we were. it hurts. also, feeling like you can't talk freely with one of your best friends about anything is sad. i just feel like i'm the only one working at a lot of the friendships in my life. it's always me trying to get a hold of you, hang out with you. i know you are busy but honestly i'm busy too and i make time to talk to you, to try to hear what's up in your life, but you never do that for me. i try and try and you never reply, and it really pains me, but there's a point at which i can't do it anymore, i can't try to initiate communication with you because it hurts me too much when you don't reply. damn. friendship only works if both people work at it. and i feel like i'm pulling all the slack around here. i guess i wish that i could give up our friendship as easily as you have, that i could just not care, but i can't do that and i don't know how to start, because i know that you're not gonna try and i can't make you.

damn, this sucks.
i guess that's life though eh?