confidence

i need a good dose of confidence.
yes. i'll go to the drug store, and go pick me up a bottle of confidence.

oh if only it were that easy.

oh bus crush, i just want to talk to you. we have eye chemistry. i know you want to talk to me too. maybe. you even looked right at me as you stepped off the bus on monday.

dearest bus crush, each time i see you i'm worried it might be the last time, and i really should talk to you, everyone tells me to, but bringing myself to do it is not as easy as they say.

it's not that i don't want to talk to you, i do! i really do, i'm just so timid... i just keep hoping you'll do it first. it almost happened twice! maybe? if only that stupid boy hadn't sat down next to me right before you got there, or if i hadn't been talking to my friend, the one day she rode the bus with me, one day, that one day you were on it, you felt our eye chemistry.

i just hope i can muster up the courage to talk to you next time.