what's this?

something doesn't feel right

i'm feeling off
and alone

i feel like i did something

or said something

and now noone wants to talk to me

or be around me

i feel like i'm fat

like i'm not pretty

and that i'm just failing in general

like i don't know what i'm going to do with my life

what's going to happen?

am i going to succeed? or will i end up in the gutter?

will anyone ever love me?

i don't think so.

boo.

i hate down days.

goodness

i've been gone for a while

but it is really late...

but i felt like i should post....

here's some william carlos williams love

This is just to say

I have eaten
the plums
that were in
the icebox

and which
you were probably
saving
for breakfast

Forgive me
they were delicious
so sweet
and so cold

oh, bother...

i saw bus crush today

he sat down right next to me

i was at a loss for words. so we just awkwardly sat. i think he was looking at me. but i'm way too timid to look at him when he's sitting that close, let alone say anything.

dang it

this is so frustrating.

caroline and the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad week

i have food poisoning

all i want to do is sleep

but i have to go to physiology lab for 4 hours... and i'm supposed to exercise today... let's hope someone will take pity on me and volunteer to exercise in my place

this truly is a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad week

oh, weekends...

i love weekends. mine are especially nice because they span a 4 day period, making my week 3 days long. glorious. so on friday morning i decided that i would make my first dress. i had some super cheap fabric that i got forever ago to play with.... so i spent most of the day cutting and pinning fabric and laboring away at my sewing machine and this is what i made!

sorry i look like crap in these pics... haha

this is me trying to show movement of the dress, and failing awkwardly...

so that was a party... then saturday i went thrifting and got 3 dresses for 8.99 that i plan to reconstruct! so exciting!

then on sunday i went up to copper with my roomie and her friend.... and shredded pow for 6, yes 6 hours... excellent day... then we went to a party in summit and i met a cute blonde boy... aww cutie haha...

then today we rode for another 4 hours (10 hours in 2 days= my knee hates me) and came home to a night of heroes and secret diary of a call girl...

all in all a good weekend...