really?

i wore cute underwear and a cute bra for nothing tonight.

an fb that turns down a hookup is just plain disappointing

no new prospects tonight either.

means i go to bed alone and pissed off.

what kind of guy turns a girl down for sex to write a paper?

we don't even have school tomorrow

weak.

so weak.

can something go right in my life for once?

my ego is bruised, i've never had to deal with this before.

fuck.

bad bad bad week.

[disclaimer: bitching, moaning, and whining to follow]

what the fuckkkk i fucking hate this week.

stop playing your dumb music, you have bad taste in music and i just can't listen to it anymore. and i fucking know what thai food is. i'm not a fucking idiot. if i don't want to spend money on something i'm not going to. dalkdsfja;ldksgjfalskdjfjk also what the fuck. reply to fucking texts. and fucking a. don't fucking ask me to hang out. and when i agree to hang out ditch me to go out. what the fuck. that is fucking messed up and i don't fucking want to deal with it right now. you're a fucking retard. i know that you don't care about me. i know that you fucking take me for granted. whatever i have no friends anyway and after may 7 i'll be living in a fucking box. so just fucking cut me out of your life now. but don't fuck with me and be like "i'm bored let's do something" and then say that your fucking "inner rockstar" has to go out. why did you ask to hang out in the fucking first place?

fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

balls.

i am so awkward.

too awkward for my own good.

because then i obsess over one awkward moment.

and get distracted all day long.

oh geeze. no more.

i wish that sadness wasn't an emotion

i'd be a lot happier without it.

i've gotta put my wallet on lockdown.

so po'

www.heartswithhaiti.org

oh and apparently i'm so friendly that it's intimidating?

there are worse ways to behave...

frowny face.

you're not very nice

i thought you were nice

but you're actually kindof a big jerk

geeze.

gosh.

thank you whip it

for making me happy

and for letting me know that if that bitch nigga won't call me back

then he's not worth my time.

good movie.

i need to join a roller derby team.

i'm glad

that i have matt and jac

to drink beer with me

and to watch the graduate with

and to eat dinner with

good night team.

i stayed in last night....

so where did all these cuts on my hands come from??

ouch

what?

i am so confused.

you initiated convo on christmas

and now you're ignoring me.

did something happen between then and now?

we didn't talk at all, so i couldn't have done anything to screw it up.

and you ignored me on my birthday.

and then did a bunch of shit on facebook, so you definitely were home.

and i don't know. i mean, i do like you.

but i'm just trying to get to know you.

be friends with you and such.

but geeze if you'd ignore your friends on their birthday

and then just not talk to them for days

then i don't know if you're the type of friend that i'd like to have.

and you're not the type of person i'd like to date.

but then again

i could be over analyzing everything.

which i usually do.

so in the off chance that you do read this

don't give up on me.

i just get sad when there are mixed signals

and when you don't reply to my texts or phone call.

but you could be busy.

so don't judge me too harshly for being sad for the lack of communication.

i just don't even know right now.

maybe i'm just lonely

i wish i had a roommate.

or a puppy.

i'm just tired of being abandoned by my friends.

am i doing something wrong?

i'd really like to know what's causing all of this

ugh. i just want a hug.