i wish that sadness wasn't an emotion

i'd be a lot happier without it.

i've gotta put my wallet on lockdown.

so po'

www.heartswithhaiti.org

oh and apparently i'm so friendly that it's intimidating?

there are worse ways to behave...

frowny face.

you're not very nice

i thought you were nice

but you're actually kindof a big jerk

geeze.

gosh.

thank you whip it

for making me happy

and for letting me know that if that bitch nigga won't call me back

then he's not worth my time.

good movie.

i need to join a roller derby team.

i'm glad

that i have matt and jac

to drink beer with me

and to watch the graduate with

and to eat dinner with

good night team.

i stayed in last night....

so where did all these cuts on my hands come from??

ouch

what?

i am so confused.

you initiated convo on christmas

and now you're ignoring me.

did something happen between then and now?

we didn't talk at all, so i couldn't have done anything to screw it up.

and you ignored me on my birthday.

and then did a bunch of shit on facebook, so you definitely were home.

and i don't know. i mean, i do like you.

but i'm just trying to get to know you.

be friends with you and such.

but geeze if you'd ignore your friends on their birthday

and then just not talk to them for days

then i don't know if you're the type of friend that i'd like to have.

and you're not the type of person i'd like to date.

but then again

i could be over analyzing everything.

which i usually do.

so in the off chance that you do read this

don't give up on me.

i just get sad when there are mixed signals

and when you don't reply to my texts or phone call.

but you could be busy.

so don't judge me too harshly for being sad for the lack of communication.

i just don't even know right now.

maybe i'm just lonely

i wish i had a roommate.

or a puppy.

i'm just tired of being abandoned by my friends.

am i doing something wrong?

i'd really like to know what's causing all of this

ugh. i just want a hug.